Buzz Aldrin tells his Alcoholism Recovery Stories | AA Speakers


hello and welcome today I have a very
special treat buzz aldrin is going to share his experience strength and hope
on alcoholism and depression in case you’re a millennial who’s been living
under a rock for their entire life Buzz Aldrin is one of the very first to human
beings to set foot on the moon he shares his story similar to yours and
mine about not fitting in and alcoholism I’ll let him tell it but first if you’re
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and used for 20 years and have been recovering for four I post videos right
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the audio of this literal legend as he takes us through a story and until next
week keep it clean keep it real and keep doing this damn thing peace my name is buzz aldrin and I’m an
alcoholic and I’m nervous too I don’t do this all that often and I
just hope that somehow we can get a nice informal rapport going and that’s kind
of up to me to do I quit smoking two days ago three days ago but I also need
to tell you that I quit smoking four years ago this hasn’t been the easiest
never in my life I came first came to into treatment about eight and a half
years ago and I have had a variety of different recovery sisters and
institutions people friends wives and one thing is crystal clear I’m a far
better man today then then I was eight and a half years ago and if there’s
anything that you carry away from are bearing witness to victory over our
difficulties it’s that this program works I grew up in New Jersey a rather
upper-class family my father Swedish and my mother was sort of half scotch and
half Welch and believe it or not my grandfather’s name on my mother’s side
was Fey Arnold moon it was a well-to-do family my father had
been an early aviation pioneer he learned to fly in 1917 and he was
general Billy Mitchell’s aide in the Philippines where he met my mother who
was a daughter of an army chaplain over there and my father went on in his Air
Corps assignments to command the to be in charge of the engineering school at
Wright Field and he was a common head there for about four or five six years
and since he had a doctor’s degree from MIT he observed and instructed most of
the leaders that eventually became the major generals or the leading generals
during World War two I was he went into the reserve in 1928 and went to work for
Standard Oil Company and shortly before I was born
they moved into a house and he stole sold a lot of stock in 1929 and bought a
house so that when the crash came in the market way we came out of that situation
pretty good I had two older sisters one of them about a year and a half older
and the other three years older than that and until I made a legal change in
my name this last week my name was Edwin Eugene Aldrin jr. and everybody wonders
where in the world buzz came from well the Air Corps people called my
father Eddie for the first name it hwon and my mother called him gene for Eugene
so when I came along there wasn’t any really appropriate name so they didn’t
want to call me jr. talk to my sisters why that creature called around the
floor was baby brother and she couldn’t pronounce that and it was baby buzzer
and that changed throughout the years and he used to make me embarrassed to
think about that story and let’s see I was 24 years old and at the Air Force
Academy when I finally got grounded for flying all over the beach in New Jersey
and finally was able to live up to that name my family was involved in social
situations that required them to or at least I was exposed to the fact that
highball was an item of social lubrication or at least that that seemed
to be something that kept things going and my father was a very hard driving
person and there’s a little doubt that that influence on my life of wanting me
to follow somewhat in his footsteps tended to mold my early life I was put
into kindergarten at the earliest stage possible four and a half something like
that and and even though I was really immature for first grade they lobbied
with the principal and kept me there and that was great because when I got out of
high school at just a little over 17 I was near the top of my class
academically but I didn’t really fit in I was very good in athletics I was on a
football team on the first Damen a pole vaulter I sure wouldn’t want that to
happen to my children and a reason I’m giving you that background is because
that plus an ethnic background of Scandinavian plus a lot of environmental
situations I think brought on the alcoholism that saw its maturity a bit
later in life than perhaps many of you might have yeah my mother was a very
depressive person I can remember when when we were children that they would
have their drink at the dining room table my grandmother was living us at
the time and it was just constant constant bickering and it just wasn’t
really what I would call a happy home environment and my two older
sisters we got married and they left and I went to West Point and I just don’t
think my mother enjoyed things they they moved from a house into an apartment and
she would associate with some of the Shore New Jersey Shore ladies who would
get together and they’d have their drinking sessions and that was their
circle and she didn’t go socially where my father went he’d go into New York and
be in the Winx Club or he got into rotary and that was the kind of
environment that I grew up in but I grew up as an achiever an achiever who knew
by the measure of my standing relative to those around me that that somehow I
had what it took in the particular test however narrow it really was but I
really didn’t deserve it cuz I didn’t feel like I deserved it when I got to
West Point young I just didn’t feel comfortable there there were the older
people and the people that socially got together and there were some people who
had had a couple years in the Army before you know the first Christmas that
you’re at West Point at least it was that way then you don’t get to go home
at Christmas of course I lived in New Jersey and it was just a short ways up
the river part of the during part of that Christmas vacation that the plebes
are there in a few upperclassmen are staying there with him and I can
remember getting a coca-cola and putting some aspirin in it because you know
things were just not that comfortable and I don’t think there was one smidgen
of an effect that it ever had on me but that’s the frame of mind of of what I
mean obviously I wasn’t about to have someone bring in a bottle of whiskey I
wasn’t that mature and yet on graduation of course we’re mature enough to command
flights in combat were mature enough to command platoons
well you know a lot of times I look back in those days in my youth and I just
sugar to think how ill-prepared I really was and a lot of it was in my mind frankly a good bit of my life on up
until glimpses of peace and comfort in the last I got to send about four or
five years maybe two years that’s pretty good last week as a matter of fact it
really is getting better two months ago was in the pit so I really don’t think they were well liked
when I was in high school being on high school football team in the track team
there were fraternities and sororities and and for the initiation you know
people would do a big thing up or in all sorts of jazz mustard and ketchup and
this kind of sauce and that kind of onion stuff and a little bit of beer and
a little bit of one kind of a cure in another those were big things as a
freshmen and New Year’s Eve with French 75s man that was really really bold you
know I I just don’t think we grew up in the same era or the same time say and I
know that that isn’t true for people my own age that they grew up I may be
flavoring things a little bit as I view the past as it being kind of an immature
recollection I graduated third in my class at West
Point and of course with the background of my father being in the in the aircar
I wanted all my life to get into airplanes to fly my first light I
vaguely remember this by people telling me and my visualizing thing I really
think I can remember a flight when I was about a year and a half or two years old
we flew down to Florida then I got sick and about a year or two later I got a
chance to as a veteran now to take off in an amphibian in Newark Bay when my
sister had her first flight and she got sick and you know I felt pretty good
about that and incidentally that plane was was there’s a picture in our
basement where that plane was christened by Amelia Earhart and General Mitchell
Billy Mitchell came through our place in New Jersey on his way to New York in the
early 30s associated with his court-martial appearances and Jimmy
Doolittle has been a friend of my folks for a good long while so you see I grew
up with a certain amount of achievement a certain amount of associating with the
with the achievers with the winners and that sort of thing was expected of me
well I certainly expected to myself and I’m the records it certainly looked as
if I was doing that after going through pilot training I went over to my first
assignment was over to Korea and obviously something had slowly been
happening because somewhere between Camp Stoneman and California and and Tokyo
where I visited some friends on my way to Korea I had made a resolution that I
wasn’t going to drink no not every second lieutenant makes that resolution
obviously that’s not average reaction to to the to the kind of
childhood I’m talking there was something that was going on there and it
was an insecurity it was appealing LEDs not deserving the
sort of things that were coming my way and obviously an awareness that alcohol
though it was making what I did a bit more comfortable at the time because
that’s what the other people did and they seemed to enjoy it and it did make
things a little bit easier for me to do but clearly at the mature age of 22
going over to fight in a Korean War not drinking alcohol was important
enough for me to make a resolution and I got over there and I saw some of my
friends the reason I didn’t go over with with actually with the same time as some
of our flying classes because I had taken a a slight delight competing for a
row scholarship and don’t you think the fighter pilots at the gunnery school at
Nellis there were occasions let me just carry through it short and
didn’t take two or three days for me to realize that there was no way that I was
going to handle this situation with my friends over there and my not drinking
while everybody was in the club drinking so that resolution went by the board now
let me backtrack a little bit when I was competing for a congressional
appointment she either West Point or Annapolis this is my junior year in high
school I went to a prep school the 20 choose how to pass that that exam that
the people over there in the hill would give us and it was it was a what you
call a a real general well-rounded education especially in vocabulary we
get the dictionary out and we went from A’s and we learned the words down
through the Em’s by the time the course was over so if we had vocabulary
questions on the latter part why that was just the breaks while I was there
they were it was a group of about ten or fifteen of us and naturally for a
little excitement we decided to just skip out one night and there were gonna
be four of us and we got this janitor to get us a bottle of whiskey you know the
trouble is he brought back gin and instead of four of us getting out there
were only two of us me and this other guy and he he was obviously a bit more
savvy and aware and I recognized this but I was damned if he was going to
drink any of my share of that and I was a stumbling block in coherent puking sixteen-year-old example of American
youth that night and that stuck in my mind for quite a while but it didn’t
stop me from drinking because as I mentioned you know several years later I
made the resolution not to drink at all there were several occasions when I was
in Korea when one in particular that I that I remember it was on a training
mission before we were qualified for combat and something went a little wrong
with the emergency fuel control and I had to hold a switch in a spring-loaded
position in order for the engine to operate normally what the fuel control
had failed in a way that it was full-on 100 percent in the only way that you
could get anything other than full power in this f-86 was to throw this switch
and of course that was the same hand that he had to push the mic button on so
the whole operation was really not what you’d call smooth I I was flying try to
maintain formation with a guy and I kept climbing high and I lost him and I it
was just a bad scene and I didn’t feel good about it and I was obviously a
little hungover and when I got on the ground I wasn’t going to drink anymore
and that lasted three or four days and there’s always the reason why you know
that’s not important anymore I want you to get the impression I was I was a
cream of American youth about this time my military well I got I got married
shortly after I came back from Korea at age 24 slightly on on the rebound
from us turn down that marriage eventually lasted nineteen twenty years
and we were assigned to the Air Force Academy I was aide to the Dean of
Faculty again you know up on a pedestal that was when I got caught for buzzing
the beach when a guy was walking his dog along the coast in New Jersey at 5:30 in
the morning now nobody’s supposed to do that oh my god no one’s so bad but the
next day Sunday morning as I was leaving why I went up and down the beach out
over the shore or over the ocean this time put the gear down of course so I
could demonstrate to everybody that the airplane would fly slow that same doctor
had a pair of binoculars out of it everything had an efficiency report that
was endorsed for the short period I was there as they used the term
self-effacing and you know that made me feel bad here I thought I was a forceful
aggressive person maybe a little under shy side I certainly wasn’t the tiger
the life of the party of the captain who was the other generals aide but that was
a very accurate appraisal of my my state at that time I was very competent young
officer I was a good pilot outstanding pilot in some ways but I was self
effacing that means I didn’t project the best of me forward
there was always greater potential if you if you’d only do it right you know
and I think there a good number of us who have experienced living under maybe
conditions similar to that there’s another breed of cat and that’s the very
exuberant one and he’s the insecure one who’s maybe using the the outward
exuberance and joke-telling to maybe cover up some of the insecurities we’re
all insecure and we just manifested in different ways I’m not sure that it’s particularly
pertinent all the lucky breaks that gave my way after being a fighter pilot in
Germany this this particular wing we were in was f1 hundreds and because I
got to pick my assignment when I left the Air Force Academy in let’s see of
1956 pretty much had picked the cream of assignments and this was the hottest
airplane that we had in the Air Force at that time and it was in Germany and
looked like a really good assignment we were in de fighters and we but halfway
through that Terr converted over to tactical weapons delivery nuclear
weapons that’s a humbling experience transitioning from where you you hassle
the guy in the air to when you’re on a five or ten minute or fifteen minute
alert and and if you know you that happens to be the day while you’re on
your way and and it’s a lonely feeling to be stooging that low altitude 360
dots each tick on the on the map you have marked off and it’s not very
sophisticated in those days it was so many minutes you’re supposed to go so
far well there was a very imposing mission and yet one of the first times I
was on alert I had one tremendous hangover now most everyone else did the same sort
of thing it didn’t show quite so much perhaps when I left that assignment I went back
to MIT and had decided that fast reactions and and fighter pilot business
was great and you know I I felt I could do that and was on the squadron gunnery
team representing our squadron in NATO but somehow I just didn’t want to be
destined to that for the rest of my career so I wanted to I guess take the
same route that my father had so he went back to school to MIT because of
drinking wine out of dirty wine glasses and Naples on the last vacation that we
had over in Germany I was in hospital for hepatitis for about nine months it
was really quite a case right at the beginning of my MIT I was the CEO a
captain just promoted to major yeah I was promoted to major uh here till after
I was there when you have that severe case of hepatitis you’re not supposed to
drink and people say yeah maybe you have not a drink for the rest of your life not me
after you know five or six months I’d I’d have a drink and it appeared to be
the right thing I was mighty your half and I decided to extend for another
you’re gonna have to work on the doctor’s degree rather than go through
I was really following very closely the the path of ed white he and I were at
West Point together he was a class behind me and we were in the same
fighter unit over in Germany and after he came back about a year so earlier
than I did and but like we correspondent and he had applied for the year he said
he was going to apply for the second group of astronauts and he’d gone
through the test pilot school I had elected to put that off sometime into
the future and to say to MIT and worked on a doctor’s degree and I went through
a process of reasoning that as I look back on it it sounds very mature reasoning for
somebody at that point but I picked a course of study in manned orbital
rendezvous I wanted to use a experience that I had as a fighter pilot and the
sophistication of Massachusetts Institute of Technology and heard
inertial guidance and orbits and trajectories and and do something that
would be useful to the service or to NASA within 15 years when I applied for
that second selection group of astronauts I wasn’t qualified cuz I had
no to the test pilot school but I had a rather envious record at that point that
I’d accumulated at West Point combat in Korea shot down two MiG’s over there and
here I was working on a doctor’s degree at MIT and rather good physical shape
but I wasn’t qualified so ed was picked in the second group along with nine
eight other people that was in 1962 and they changed the rules in 1963 and you
didn’t need to be a graduate a test pilot school they put a little bit more
emphasis on an education so I was picked to get into our
astronaut program in 1963 and I didn’t feel like I belong there either because
I wasn’t one of the boys I wasn’t one of the test pilots I had other credentials
of course it in many ways supplemented what I what I had lacked an experience those were rather productive years in as
I look back on what I was able to do in terms of having a small influence for
what I studied at MIT having an influence on the directions and sort of
the methods in which we carried out our program and by this time I had three
children quite close together two years about separated the first two and ten
months separated the second two they were Oh see well right now they’re 28 26
and 25 so that was like eight 15 16 17 years ago the influence of the space program on me
was rather awesome there are a lot of details that could explain why I happen
to end up where I did but a lot of it really was being in the right place at
the right time it was it was a productive period I felt I contributed
significantly we played relatively hard I don’t look
back on those years and say that there was much of a progression of alcoholism
from the active participating standpoint from the emotional build-up to a crisis
or crescendo that was going on and I didn’t know that and the impact of
public appearances and in a sense the loss of direction being in within my
grasp and my influence at first that was the first I really began to see someone
else telling me to go do something that I didn’t feel comfortable doing and I
knew I had to do it in one fashion or another and they did it but looking back
on it I can remember some periods of rather immobilizing concern anxiety and
fear obviously not looking good of not doing what I thought I ought to be able
to and not living up to their expectations after Apollo this game in
spades really the carrying out of the mission itself
was unencumbered it was just a beautiful experience to be a part of but there was
always that uneasiness about what this was going to mean to my life afterward
and and I began to feel the effects of this immediately on return in terms of
the concern for looking good I was under medication for antidepressants when we
were on our around the world trip and I drank considerably for comfort along
with that I stayed in Houston with NASA for about a year year and a half after
that working on the very preliminary parts of the space shuttle program and
kind of wandering around to the degree that I didn’t have public appearances
anymore kind of wandering around with with the freedom to direct and misdirect
and waste some of my time while I was waiting for an assignment back to the
Air Force I was given assignment to command to test pilot school at Edwards
I didn’t think that that was too good an assignment for somebody they’d never
been through school the first time anyone’s commanded it who’s never been
through it and at a time I mean they get you know a space hero in to govern the
test pilot school at a time that they were de-emphasizing space at the test
pilot school I thought that what I could do while I was there was go through the
school with the students and still administer and but Jesus I’ve been away
from the service for 11 and a half years 3 and a half at MIT and seven and a half
at in the NASA program not a lot of leadership or management in either of
those situations and I wanted to compare myself with what I ought to be able to
do under those conditions and what my other classmates who have been going the
command and staff school and air War College and all that I was a setup for a
crash and I kind of crashed and was admitted to a psychiatric hospital with
a cover-up of having a neck problem which I had my fingers
were getting a little numb while I was there I made decisions to make big
changes in my life I was through competing in the Air Force and this
marriage that I had wasn’t all that satisfactory and here I was there at the
Red Badge of Courage having seeked help and man I was confident I was gonna get
all the other so why not write a book about this glorious story where I’m
gonna marry this diversity from New York and now that really sounded good at that
time of course most of the time I was in this hospital at in San Antonio on the
weekends every weekend I was off somewhere visiting hunting with somebody
or visiting somebody else and drinking considerably I remember one time coming
back into the hospital carrying a bottle of scotch in my navigators kit bag now
when you’re in a hospital trying to get yourself put together and you know
people are paying a lot of attention to you you’re sitting in the office with a
guy who’s got a picture of right on the wall with stars on his shoulder anyway
you just don’t sneak in scotch into that hospital room while you’re doing that
that’s not quite normal behavior eventually I wrote a book about my
experiences called returned Earth which had to do with seeking psychiatric help
for my fear and anxiety emotional problems I remember a number of years
after that meeting a guy by the name of habit Mills somewhere and he said I read
your book when I came out and I said to someone god I wish somebody would tell
this guy that he’s just purely an alcoholic
this was a 1973 that I wrote the book and big deal though I mean they motional
II wound a guy what happens the National Mental Health Association nominates him
as national chairman of the year and guess what he gets to do he gets to go
around the country making public appearances well there was about me this
time and you know for a while I was an interesting story too to talk about my
recovery from depression except I didn’t quite make all of the appearances I’d
gone through a separation at the time and had the freedom to be in my own
place and so there were times when I just wanted to stay home and drink the
the last flight let me see while I was going through this business
I went through s training and even before that but the shrink I was seeing
put me in the VA and in 1974 for eight days and he was the shrink who had
retired as a colonel in the Air Force he was also the same guy that was at Brooks
Air Force Base when they ran our qualification physicals for the NASA
astronaut program he didn’t know too much about alcoholism in those days
obviously but he’s learned a lot and he’s now certifying pilots for recovery
from alcoholism for the FAA and I’m sure he’s learned a lot and we’ve all learned
a lot but we didn’t all get the kind of help that we need it back in those days so on 70 before I in February I guess
this was actually 75 yeah I was hospitalized for eight eight days in
February and I went to my first day a meeting and I saw master sergeants there
and I saw other people who were sloshing around the hospital and bathrobes didn’t
think he’d ever said I happen to be sloshing around the bathroom too but I
was different anyway I had no interest in that program long
in April I went through s training and I drank considerably the night before and
peed in my pants considerably the first day of s training drank in between the
two sessions he’s not supposed to do that and yet I thought I received a good
bit out of the training now this is April May sometime around July of 1975 I
got an invitation to fly down to the Cape and John Denver’s airplane with
wearing her heart to see the Apollo so it’s white one trouble is I had to tell
him two days before that I couldn’t make it because I was in the middle of a
binge in my apartment and there was a couple of weeks later that I went into
my first recovery with my fiancee by the name of Beverley taking me to a place in
Orange County that was called Beverly Manor later became known as care matter
about a year later I gotta say that my recollections of how
I was functioning then are just sort of hazy I didn’t feel comfortable and at
the same time I it into that recovery program and played volleyball with the
rest of them and it’s not in a way there was a sense of relief and going into
that first program of recovery because I knew there was something wrong with me
clearly I’ve been hospitalized for depression anxiety and having gone
through several releases or surrenders I guess made my first entrance into a a
bit easier actually it was a relief to think that yeah all I got to do is don’t
drink what’s in that bottle and you know it’s a much nicer cleaner thing to do to
have wrong with you then this nebulous cloudy thing of emotional depression alcoholic fear fear of losing what I had
are not getting what I want and those things are common regardless of what
what the particular sense of circumstance has happened to be five
months in the program was really not in the program very well it was because of
being a special person I don’t think there was a soul who would have
succeeded in convincing me that 90 meetings in 90 days was the thing to do it was very uneasy and within about six
or seven months I was back in the hospital for depression given some
medication prescribed by a physician who was in one of the recovery places and
there was an improper the prescription for me at that time when I had a series
of 2030 day periods of sobriety and all during this time I’d been introduced to
the Navy program and visited there off and on just to see what it was like down
in Long Beach and I had met doctor person down there
but five four or five months later I was in recovery down there and for five
weeks I went through the Navy program and there were guys who really didn’t
think I was gonna make it so we just didn’t think you were gonna make it my
first sponsor really was not tough enough on me or I wasn’t listening
I had another sponsor I sort of picked him out because he had a lot of
experience in depression I was going through a good pivot and after five
months had another six-pack or a pint or whatever it was and this is now two
years of recovery and I just not seen any progress so some of the people that
I knew maybe I oughta go see Clancy so I turned myself into the Pacific Group and
I had a year of sobriety that was fearful I can’t say it was humiliating
it was it was a it was a reduction of ego during that time and it was a
learning process of commitment it was all for me I think Clancy would probably
agree that we sort of wore each other out during that period and I think he
could see it coming and as my first year approached I took my cake and before I’d
taken two cakes I was drunk again then there was a relationship going on during
the time and that had a lot to do with it
I was trying to rescue and save somebody and be detached and you can’t you just
can’t do that that was eight days of continuous
drinking with a friend of mine and we went up into the desert and he stuffin
and it was miserable and I came back and I was rescued by the guy that was
chasing this girlfriend around and I really picked at my wrists at night I didn’t want to accomplish very much I
went over and I broke in and the neighbors called the cops and they came
and hauled me off not too much progress in court to pay pay for the damaged or I
guess some of us have to go through what we need to go through I was exposed to
varieties of recovery people recovery modes hospitalizations I have to drive
or six months of searching around I found a sponsor that I have today and
rebelled together rather nicely he’s he’s an engineer he works for his
helicopter and and we have compatible views of spirituality I found that early
in my recovery that I had to I felt it necessary for me to strip away the
hypocrisy that I had grown up with even though things were very meaningful and
it was important for me to was a quiet astronaut participation participated a
march in the parade for Martin Luther King and it was meaningful for me to
take communion on the moon but somehow being an elder in the Presbyterian
Church even with stuff John didn’t feel quite right to me so I had to strip away
that and rebuild and I don’t think I really have the time to go into my
outlook on spirituality now but it’s a much more comfortable one I I can say that in the last five years
things have gradually going up and down and what has been characteristic of my
recovery is that all the ups and downs are they we may last a little longer but
they’re not as deep they’re not as threatening and in a sense I bounce off
and and I participate in life in an exuberant comfortable way and I have the
peace and happiness and the self-worth I have a very unstructured life and I
wouldn’t really wish that on anybody you ought to get into a commitment where you
need to be there it makes things much easier but the freedom of being able to
choose what I want to get into has had glimpses of working in the last couple
of years and it is really beginning to work now and I feel that what I’m
involved in reflects what Joe perch told me and one of our debriefing sessions
about your contemporaries went out and they did their thing and they’re kind of
living on whatever they did do and what they’re doing now you have the potential
because of what you’ve been through and what you’ve worked your way through and
what you have experienced and changing growth to be a much useful person how
much more comfortable person a lot of tails and I’d like to have told you that
I’ve heard from the podium before about cucumbers changing through the pickles
and they never go back again or things that I’ve heard my sponsor talk about
they’re very meaningful to me and he heard them from somebody else if you are
going to meetings and things just aren’t working and yet after a while you
stopped going to meetings and you wander down and you sit in the bar for a while
and you’re not sure what you’re going to do but the bartender comes up to you and
says hey what’s the matter oh I thought you’d go into a what are you doing in
here doesn’t AAA work he says you gotta be honest with the bartender and
hopefully honest with yourself because you didn’t work the steps and you didn’t
go to meetings you gotta say to them you don’t really know whether they a works
you never tried and I’ve tried in the past five years to work this program and
I can’t say that I’ve got all A’s for it but but I’m earning the benefits of it
now and those no doubt I just know you gotta believe me because I do come to me
by parents by upbringing at the right time none is going to produce more
meaningful results in a human being than this program his gradual growth and what
I am learning from sharing with people I don’t maybe I was a little bit more in
my preliminary life leading up to this it was to maybe show you give you a
glimpse of the person that would have been standing here eight years ago and
the person that I know people have seen but remember me when I was like five
years ago three years ago and it’s getting better and better and I know it
and I tell you there’s nothing like knowing that that you’re getting Weller woosh the blessings that I’ve received
not all great I mean I spend some periods where I don’t want to
participate in life lose a few things but I regain those opportunities again
and I just hope that you can get as much out of this program
because I have and it’s all really here and it’s in this book and my sponsor
gave me this cover and it means a lot to me and I wanted to mention some things
that are significant in there about the second edition the story about the
paradoxes that touches on the essence of what I’m beginning to say as a
spirituality that exists between reasoning
beings just as much as if I drop this it’s going to splash on the floor and
those are physical laws the laws that govern the relationships between us are
embodied in the spirituality of this program and and those are as much a law
and that’s the power that’s mighty greater than me and we find that of that
are the essence of of what makes me know that the dis program works and it keeps
me coming back and I hope you keep coming back to every one of you thank
you

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  • About this video: You know , every once in a while, a person that has stepped on the moon tells you he has the same struggles as you do. Wait…that's never happened! Until now! Buzz Aldrin tells his Alcoholism Recovery Stories | AA Speakers! This is the Buzz Aldrin AA speaker tape from 1983, where the legend Buzz Aldrin himself speaks of his depression, alcohol use disorder, and how he struggles to stay sober. -James

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